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listening to "I'm like a bird" of Nelly Furtado

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is

I'm such a selfish person.I think I'm not good enough for him who patiently waits for me and never get tired of just being there. I feel I'm not good enough for anyone.
You see I'm just like a free bird. I never want to be in anyone's nest.
I don't know "compromising", I can't or perhaps I wont share my "ME" my inner me to anyone who would try so. I want so much to be the person that he expects or maybe the person he thought he loves but you see I am not. I'm just me...
I can't and wouldn't let anyone share my time, demand my time. I love being just a free bird. A bird that can go and can be with anyone she wants to be with. a bird without obligations, without caring to anyone but herself. There are times,this bird feels lonely and long for someone yet being with someone means sharing that she can't handle.

Perhaps someday I'll feel sorry for letting you slip on my hand, yet I know this is the right thing to do. I can't let you hope when I know and I feel there's nothing for us.
You don't deserve a selfish person.

I wish I can feel what people feel but you see I'm just me. someday this bird will long for a nest, will long for a partner and will have a li'l bird of her own. just don't ask when. for the answer will remain "unknown"


Who doesn't want love?! Every sane person long for that but not everyone can actually feel love and most importantly courageous enough to handle the responsibility of committing yourself to someone you love.
You can't love without sharing yourself.
You can't love without without sharing your time.
You can't love without sharing responsibility.
What is love without "compromise"?
What is love without "losing your self"?
What is love without "getting hurt"?

You see so many questions and so many things to think about...
that I'm not ready to face...
I just want to be me.... to be happy ... without losing myself... without sharing myself ... I am just selfish..

Don't you think I have not tried?!
I've tried but you see I failed miserably.
I'm fine where I am.
I long for "love" but I am not ready to risk.

You see I am selfish. I just want to be a free bird!