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Lately I have been made to feel that I am the "bad one" and that infuriates me! I also made to feel as if I am irresponsible and good for nothing person that all I do is somewhat wrong. I don't feel I deserve that. I have done nothing wrong. In fact, I am a person who never 'fires back" even when fired upon. most people don't do that. Either I am stupidly patient or I just lack the energy to argue and explain myself. It's gotten to a point that I dreaded investing so much love to people.Love is supposed to be of joy and comfort right? mine is place of frustrations. There are days that I just want to throw my hands in the air and say "enough" Enough trying so hard, enough doing what is expected of me, enough minding what people think of me, enough giving way, enough being hurt when people think bad stuff about me & enough trying to think what is best to people thinking that it is what is being a good person all about. Just enough! these are the days when I debate myself the possibility of leaving home, moving from another place, spending the little saving I have,chopping my hair off or jumping on a plane to never-land or anywhere that is far far away or maybe do something drastic or crazy because I had enough of being a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend and even being a good person. right now I am almost there.